If you are a mother, this is a question you have no doubt asked yourself...probably many times. I find myself nursing at 3am, saying to myself
"will. i. ever. sleep. again?"
as I look over at my husband who is sound asleep with an almost smile on his face.
The truth? You will sleep again. When? I honestly do not know.
Between teething and sleep regression and colds and fevers and growing pains and being too hot or too cold, it can be easy to fear you may never be well-rested again.
Fear not! Your day will come.
Something I have been thinking about a ton is time. Time well spent, poorly spent, passing by too fast, feeling like it never will pass. And the truth is,
"time. is. passing."
and it will continue to do so.
Your baby is growing up-slowly and surely(or quickly). Some of these seasons seem to be lasting forever-teething-and some are zooming by-crawling, now she’s standing!
I have been trying to intentionally acknowledging time when it feels like it is lasting foreveeeeeeeer. A question I ask myself is this: what can I learn from this? It is a bold and scary thing to ask ourselves, but I am a firm believer that it is possible for us to learn from every difficult circumstance we face, including trials in motherhood. I do not want time to feel wasted and meaningless, and at times when things are hard, I can naturally begin to think this way. I hope that in every stage of our kid’s lives we grow not only as parents but as individuals, and the only way to avoid that regret-and-hindsight feeling is to ask and acknowledge while in the moment.
Use those late night feedings, rockings, walk-around-the-room-forever-ings to ask yourself, what can I learn from this? Can I learn patience? Grace? Compassion? How can I use this moment to grow as a mom, as a wife/partner, as a person?
So yes, you will sleep again. And in the meantime, you can use these moments to grow and learn and be the best mom you can be-since that is what your child really needs.
And I’ll say it louder for the people in the back, YOU WILL SLEEP AGAIN! EVENTUALLY!